A “Rainbow Baby” is a term that is used to describe a baby who born into a family following a previous pregnancy which resulted in a miscarriage, premature birth, still birth, or infant death. The rainbow symbolises the hope that this new baby brings to the family without forgetting the impact of the storm of losing a child.
Baby Loss by miscarriage is something which is very close to my heart and something which happens to more people than you would imagine. It is also a subject that is rarely spoken about.
In 1996 my husband and I were overjoyed to find out we were expecting twins. We found out about this pregnancy very early and the twin pregnancy was confirmed on a vaginal scan. We were expecting Non-identical twins and while the thought of 2 babies first time round was daunting, we were also very excited at the prospect. Sadly those twin babies were not to be when around 10 weeks later after some spotting progressed to heavy bleeding, I lost the pregnancy.
The devastation of that news was almost unbearable as these 2 little babies had already become so much part of our thoughts and plans for our future. I did go on to fall pregnant again fairly soon after this loss and all thoughts and plans then became centred around the new baby we were expecting and my little Rainbow Baby girl was born in June 1997.
I always thought that I had dealt with the loss of our twins but a few years ago this grief was all stirred up again when I read a book called “Heaven is for Real” by Ted Burpo. This is a true story about a little boy who dies on an operating table and goes to Heaven and comes back. Over a few years as he grows up he tells his parents and others about his experiences in Heaven. One part of this hit such a nerve for me. His parents had suffered a miscarriage prior to his and his older sister’s birth. He tells the story of meeting his Sister in Heaven and that she has dark hair like Mummy not the blonde hair that he and his other sister have. He also tells his parents that she is waiting for them to come to Heaven to give her a Name.
Boy…. that hit me like a punch in the tummy!! I never knew the sex of my twins and moved on so quickly to the next baby, I had not even considered naming them. So after thinking about this for several months, reading the section of the book many times including out load to my husband and later watching the movie of this book, we sat down and decided on names for our twins. We had to choose 2 girl’s names and 2 boy’s names………not knowing which combination of babies we had. So Devon or Brody (Boys) , Cassidy or Maddison (Girls) this is for you…..
So this year I have decided to do something that I have been thinking about for quite a while. I am going to be offering a FREE RAINBOW NEWBORN MINI SHOOT every month to a family .
I started this off in January when I photographed this beautiful little boy. His Mummy, Sophie’s special little Rainbow…..
In June 2017 my dreams of becoming a mum had come true and I was over the moon about finally becoming a mum… little did I know that just three months later that dream would be crushed. I lost my daughter Logen-Lei in September 2017 at 15 weeks and 6 days to Edwards syndrome alongside some other medical conditions. Many said she was born to early to be a baby. They were so wrong she was my beautiful little princess with every feature clearly there.
The months after when I was trying to conceive my Rainbow baby were very bumpy, every month that I had a negative test were heartbreaking and it would get me down so much. Finally in May 2018 I had the positive result I had been waiting for, but I couldn’t be happy about it and I couldn’t celebrate the good news as I thought I would have been able to. Instead fear took over, fear that something would happen to this baby. A rainbow pregnancy is far from easy. Every day thoughts of losing that baby are so powerful and overwhelming, The scans were just a little reassurance but would never completely put my mind at ease. My rainbow was healthy and growing well but still the thoughts would fill my mind.What if they have missed something? What if they are wrong?
Fast forward to the delivery of my rainbow baby. The birth was far from what I wanted and had planned but it had brought my rainbow into the world, my little sticky plaster sent by his sister. Oakley Oscar Brown was born on oth January 2019. He had a very bumpy start to life after contracting an infection, we spent the first five days in hospital where many tests were run and it was so heartbreaking to see him poorly. As I held him and stared down at him I realised more and more just how much he looked like his big sister and even has the same little button nose. I was filled with joy and happiness but also sadness as it made me realise just how much i had missed out on with my angel.
I realised I needed to capture my precious rainbow while he was still so small and create memories that would last forever. When Tracey offered me the free rainbow shoot I jumped at the chance and said yes. Although slightly anxious on the day of the shoot as I hadn’t allowed anyone I didn’t know to hold my baby in fear that something may still happen to him, I was also excited to see what she could create.
As I handed Oakley over, I sat in a chair anxiously waiting for him to be handed back to me not taking my eyes of him. Although he was a little unsettled despite me following all the guidelines Tracey had given me. Tracey was amazing with him cuddling and settling him and captured him in some beautiful positions and scenes.
I now have some extremely beautiful memories to treasure forever.
The Free Rainbow Mini Shoot
This FREE RAINBOW MINI SHOOT will include:-
1.A one to one and a half hour photo shoot in the studio
2. Full use of all our Props
3. A Viewing Session 2-3 weeks after your shoot where I will aim to show you around 10-15 images to choose from.
4. 3 Digital Images with a Rainbow Theme, fully edited and in High Resolution with Print Rights for Personal Use as well as the Low Res Social Media Images on Disc or by Digital Download
5. Additional Photos may be purchased at standard studio prices if required.
Rainbow Baby Shoot Information
1.Babies must be under 21 days old. Preferably nominated and booked in prior to birth.
2.Shoots will be offered at the discretion of Kidz Unlimited Photographic Studio and successful candidates will be notified in writing.
3.Families/Parents can apply themselves or can be nominated by Friends or Family.
4.Parent & Baby and Sibling Shots will not be offered in this session. This will be a shoot for Baby only.
5.Specific Requests cannot be accommodated due to the nature of this session.
6.Full Preparation Information will be sent out to parents before the shoot.
7.Parents would need to agree to the use of images on-line and would need to sign a Model Release Form stating this.
If you would like to apply for or nominate someone for a FREE RAINBOW NEWBORN MINI SHOOT please.
Contact me by e-mail via a Contact Form HERE on my Website.
Please tell me the Parents names and contact phone numbers, Due date of Baby and tell me their Rainbow Baby Story and why you think you/they deserve a free shoot. Please also tell me where you heard about this offer.